Yesterday I spent the day with my family. I was looking at my gorgeous sister Kellie and getting pretty jealous that she was so thin. But then it dawned on me last night that I could be as thin as I wanted to be. Seriously, I only have about 20 pounds to lose, that's totally doable. So why don't I do it? Because I have an insatiable sweet tooth, and I'm good at rationalizing that one cookie isn't going to make a difference, one doughnut isn't going to show up on the scale tomorrow.
To weigh what I did before Axel I need to lose 10 pounds.
To weigh what I did before Olivia I need to lose 15 pounds.
To weigh what I did when I got married I need to lose 22 pounds.
My goals for June, July and September will all help me lose weight, but I don't want to wait until then suffering in my post pregnancy jeans that are too big and my pre pregnancy jeans that are too small. I want to shop for trendy clothes without worrying (or hoping) that they'll be too big in a month or two.
So, no more handfuls of chocolate chips while the babies are sleeping. No more second desserts at my MIL's house on Sunday. No more making chocolate chip cookies with Olivia and then eating them all with Adam at night. Just a few simple changes. I can still have dessert, but I'm going back to a time when dessert was special and not a requirement after every meal.
*Since writing this I've stopped eating treats and I'm down two pounds! Some of that is probably water weight, but a small victory is nice to help me want to continue!